Friday. Scale day. And today it said…I lost one pound. Woohoo! It went back and forth between 204 and 205 for a few seconds, but I had baked mac & cheese for supper last night and it settled on the 205. So that’s 20 pounds lost so far in 2012 and, since I put 55 stones in the Pounds To Lose jar, I’m more than a third of the way there.
It’s encouraging, but it’s also messing with my head a little. I mean, shouldn’t 20 pounds matter? Shouldn’t I have to buy new jeans? Something? Sure, my favorite Tinkerbell jammies are so loose I have to be sure Taz doesn’t grab hold of the legs or I’ll be pantsed, but shouldn’t I look in the mirror and see a difference?
So yesterday I posted the picture of me modeling the scarf I knit for the awesome Unleeshed auction and I got a few comments complimenting me on my progress. I was perplexed…until I remembered the Dreaded Author Photo of Doom.
That was taken in August, I believe. I’m almost sure of it because it was last minute and I managed to schedule it for the hottest day of the year. It was over 100 degrees and I was so uncomfortable with the entire process. I wasn’t happy with the way they did my hair and I was hot and I hate having my picture taken and I had almost immediate “carsickness” because I had to wear magnifying reading glasses from Walmart instead of my prescription glasses because they auto-tint in the sun. I was miserable and on the verge of tears the entire time, so I don’t look at the photo much and cringe whenever I have to use it.
But maybe it offers a little perspective. August of 2011, probably somewhere between 225 and 230, and this morning, at 205. (And obviously happier, with my vision not blurry and a headband shoved in my hair.)
So what I’m taking from this is that I might not look in the mirror and see much of a difference, but based on my willingness to voluntarily take and publicly post two pictures of myself in two days, I must be feeling a bit of difference. I’m going to call that good enough and keep going. And in the spring, I’m going to have new professional shots taken.
How’s everybody else doing?