I learned something last night that upset me. A lot. But I’m trying to be a good girl, so I slept on it. I’m still pissed. And not only am I still pissed, but I’m not a morning person, either, so now I’m cranky on top of it. I’m not going to do any recapping, linking, and naming. The episode happened a long time ago and it’s not my intention to vomit it all up again here. But I’m not going to have any peace until I get this out.
Some time ago I was involved in a disagreement of opinions here on my blog with two writers for whom I had and still have a great deal of respect. It was an interesting discussion, but it did get a little ugly toward the end. I’ll confess to being a little taken aback at the time by how it got out of hand so badly.
What I didn’t know then, but do know now is that the two writers were subjected to some hateful and ugly private emails. Now if they were simply emails by people who wanted to share their opinion but were reluctant to post publicly in my comments, I highly doubt that they would be classified as “people at their worst”, which means they were hateful and ugly emails sent to “defend” me or on my behalf.
Even as a writer, I don’t have the words to describe how upset I am by this. It’s taken me damn near an hour to get this far because I keep having to walk away from the computer.
When I run my mouth, I will back it up or I will back down. To know that while I thought I was engaged in a public discussion (albeit losing), people were essentially kneecapping the other writers below the table level embarrasses me, shames me and pisses me off.
To the writers who were the victims of this juvenile kneecapping, you have my sincerest apologies.
To those who sent the emails…I wasn’t given names and I didn’t ask. It was a long time ago. But if a discussion is going on and you believe in something enough to say it, then take your turn at the microphone. Don’t go under the table and break kneecaps.
To those who have no idea what I’m talking about, we will now return to our regularly scheduled programming.